love

dynamic pairs have become more and more deeply fascinating lately as i become more deeply cognizant of the potency of their combination.  today i realize that by plumming their mysteries, i realize their inherent inseperability (I know, duh).  They are NOT one, as in one of a sameness, but they are one, as in one of an inseperable union, giving the illusion of a lone 'act'.  maybe it is both their passionate claim for independence in the fear of being annihilated through dependence, and the passionate longing for union for fear of being annihilated by the void which provides the primary stimulus or tension in the fundamental dance.  the fundamental play.  And the nature of that relationship is full of wonder, mystery, energy, and play far greater than the sum of their parts, with no linear calculus to truly measure their value.  whenever i behold one, i realize it is incomplete and look to bring its compliment into the scene as it is then merely a story half told.  they dance and they play, they explore, emerge, expand and create. 

I guess it's all part of the observation of the larger play itself.  And...as that play begins to sing, it calls for my participation inside of that observation, to where the observation and the participation become one dancing, living union, forming a seemless, synchronous event.  Every scene, every set, every character, every prop, every mood, every condition, every moment.

I am becoming oh so aware that any attempt on my part to 'do no harm' is in direct proportion to the size of my heart, and NOT just my brain.

I have found that living is not just an art, but also a tremendous act of courage in the face OF 'death'.

These are some of the thoughts guiding my way today.  A little bit about me

And finally, for today, that no matter how well i learn to express this complex of interwoven ideas, a sort of 'me', i'll always be missing just a little something because eternity is truly inexpressable.  Perhaps the best we can ever do sometimes is through a simple smile.

or...do each other the honor to honor the unspeakable unexpressable in each and every one of us.

cheers, and in the face of the unspeakable :-)))))))

Maybe this is as much about YOU as it is about me.

Secondly, I'd like to really take this opportunity to thank everyone here as this turtle slowly pokes his head out of his shell.  The ability to express myself freely and openly, while being accepted fully for that has been as beautiful a gift as any i have received. 

the community, at large, is a phenomenal expression of the devine, and I suppose I am beginning to really appreciate its ultimate power.

I do not feel as if I am overstating this when i say I really do NOT know what I would do without you.

eternal love and sunshine